Today I had an appointment at Jacketts Field Neurological Centre for my neuro-physiotherapy assessment. I was slightly worried as I had heard very mixed reviews about the unit but was doing my best to go with an open mind. As it was an assessment I knew a lot of the time there would be spent answering questions verbally e.g how does your spasms affect your ability to swallow or do you have any walking ability? However some of it was going to be physical, this left me concerned as my body is currently in meltdown mode due to lack of Botox so moving about could be painful. Luckily my mother agreed to come with me which put my mind at rest, if the worst did happen and I had seizure after seizure and an ambulance needed to be called, I would be safe and my mother would be able to instruct them on what needed to be done – however all that worrying was for nothing as I didn’t have a seizure 🙂
After answering a lot of questions and having a good laugh with the physiotherapist, it was time to demonstrate just what my little Dystonia alien does to my legs. Figuring I would only have to take two or three steps with my walking sticks, plus the physio and my mum holding me up, I happily stripped off my splints and stood up. This promptly set off my spasms in my legs and the next things I knew I was on the floor! I had not even taken one step! Benedict obviously had been enjoying playing twister with my face and got his knickers in a right old twister when asked for my legs to join in…stroppy sod! As much as my body is now a little sore at least it gave the physio a good idea of what exactly I am contending with.
Due to how much my body does, the assessment did not get finished even though we majorly ran over time! So we have had to book another assessment in! I am really looking forward to this.
On a quick note this Saturday I am attending my local Dystonia Society Group meeting, this will be this first one I have been to and I am so excited to meet other people with my condition!
Over the last couple of days I have not felt to great and my spasms have been awful. I have found myself going from being boiling hot one moment to shaking with cold the next, along with some interesting spasms. My legs latest trick is to spasm so that the leg is completely back to front, which is not a comfortable position to be in. I am going to try and get my mum to capture a picture of it the next time it happens.
Thankfully today I am feeling slightly more like myself and my spasms have been less extreme. I don’t know if the antibiotics that I am on as a trial for possible Lyme Disease caused the increase in spasms or if I was just under the weather.
I am still waiting to hear from my consultant in regards to being admitted for a week so that I can get some help. We last heard from him on around the 15th April and despite us sending him several emails and chasing his secretary we have heard nothing. When ever I have an appointment with my consultant he seems great, however I am getting more and more frustrated with the lack of help I am getting! Everything that was being arranged for me seems to be not quiet what he gave me the impression it would be. Last October he put me on the waiting list for an inpatient intensive therapy program, and told me that the waiting list for the program was about a year long. However I had an appointment up at the hospital the other day where I was interviewed by two members of staff who will at some point decide IF they are going to admit me to the ward or not. IF I do get admitted it will not be until around June 2014.
I struggle to believe that there is no other help out there that could be put in place for me now. I understand that hospital wards are busy, however surly there must somewhere be at least an outpatient Neuro Physiotherapy service that I could be referred to This is going to be something I will discuss with him when I eventually get to see him. I am hoping that I will at least have an outpatient appointment with him soon as I am in need of my Botox injections for my jaw and neck to be redone.
Until my consultant sorts everything out I am going to keep my fingers crossed that Lyme Disease is what has caused this mess, as at least then I know the cause and that is one thing I can stop worrying about.
On Tuesday I wrote an email to my consultant, explaining that now my whole body was being affected by my dystonia and that I no longer knew what I was expected to do. I have tried to bring a number of positive activities into my life and carry on with everything as much as possible without letting my Dystonia affect me, however all of these activities are rather hard to do when your whole body is out of your control. I asked him for advice, and if I he could refer me to anything or suggest anything I try. Yesterday my consultant neurologist replied, he apologised for how hard it was to get me treatment due to long waiting lists, and has offered to take me into the hospital for a few days (up to a week). Whilst in the hospital I shall see him and the Neuro-physiotherapists. I am rather hopeful that this shall mean that I shall come away from my short stay there with a better idea of how to cope/work around my spasms.
I also received a couple of letters from my consultant in the post yesterday. One of them was a letter for us to take when ever we go to hospital/A&E, so that the hospital know how to treat me. He sent us several copies of this letter, which I am extremely thankful for, as it should enable me to receive the correct treatment with ease from them. Another letter was a copy of the one he has sent to my GP, explaining the treatment he is currently giving me (botox injections to the jaw and neck) and that he wanted me to start me on Clonezpam. I had mentioned to my GP the other day about the fact my consultant wanted me on this new medication, but because I did not know the dosage he was unable to prescribe it for me. This now means that I will be able to phone my GP tomorrow and ask him to prescribe it, as the dosage has been written in the letter. I am rather excited to try this new medication, as it should hopefully prevent my Non Epileptic Attacks.
I am feeling ever so happy today, as I feel like this upcoming hospital admittance, and the new medication should do me the world of good. Knowing that there is a plan in place is a very calming thought and I feel like I can relax and not worry about my little Dystonia alien as soon the right people will be able to see his antics and help me.